girlygirl's emotions

hi guyz,
know i haven been blogging lately... finally i m free to blog about my life... decided to be a gd gal n stay home todae to entertain my visitors...
an achievement was that i managed to figure out how to load some songs and pic from my comp to my phone n the other way... so proud of myself... haha... played ard wit it for the first time ever since it was bought!!!
i've been slackin n havin fun for the past weeks and i'm really happy :) haven been feelin like this for a long long time... valentine was meaningful n simple... enjoyed myself every bit!
sent off ben at the airport on wed morning... as usual i was LATE!!! din mean to be late la... luckily i managed to say bye! felt sadden that a close friend's leaving... hope he'd settle down well n make good friends soon... heya, if u r reading my blog, don't worry okay, will keep u inform wit our major activities n projects la... jia you for ur studies!
anyway for myself... i'm really happier n passionate for this coming year... the youth ministry, my results, wat's in for my life next (as in educational path) and how much i can contribute to THE breakthrough in my own life, the church n youth ministry's vision!
trying to look out for a job now... probably prefer to do roadshow... maybe continuing the "germ killer" sales to comfort drivers or maybe back to my attachment at righteous international subscription services?? hope they'd want be as a promoter or doing roadshows... or hopefully i can go back to my primary school n be a relife music teacher? not sure wad the lord has installed for mi but i'll keep my options open for now... but i guess i wan occupy myself wit some meaningful work la... learn somethings, experince work life n of coz earn my allowance...
really really hope wit every fibre of my being that my A's result would be fine... just to let mi enter the uni locally... sign* most likely finance or business management... something in that field, my interest...
no matter wad, i hope i'd be able to cope wit the results i receive!!! it's gonna be real soon lor... dreading it alot actually... boooo!!! but wateva it is, i'll hav to move on frm there... whether it's gd or bad... yup. so i hope i'd be able to face it positively la...

will blog again soon, i hope! leave mi a tag if want*
smile :)

heya everyone... i'm currently blogging with a lousy mood... althought it's christmas but i'm not feeling happy or excited... quite similar to last year... y isn't christmas dae fun?
ytd i spend the entire dae in church... its was great... had normal service in the morning, lead out in worship service, then helped out in making sushi... hehe... then went for carolling practice then dinner... the evening service was cool... the drama, the carols, the message, my 12 friends n the music... simply perfect... really appreciate my friends comin... hehe hope u guyz enjoyed urselfs...
going off to a retreat tmr... i miss my room... my bed... my bears... everything... booo....
anyway i hope that tis retreat would be a fruitful one...
really hope tat everyone would receive love, a genuine one on this special dae... christmas...
love all my friends... 204, cheryl n anthea... hehe
merry christmas...

jus finished my surgery on mondae... it was the scariest dae of my life... the needle poking into my hand... i breathed in some oxygen n fell into a deep rest... i hoped... desired wit all my heart... but still i din c u... i cried, like a tap that lost control... not only was i full of fear but hurt... bogoshipda is all i wanted to say to u... i told myself its time to forget but i cant... all i felt was God's presence in the surgery theatre... i know that deep down in my heart God's holding my hand n whispering to mi how much he loves me n dun wish to see mi in pain, fear n sadness... i know that God will heel mi coz he has so much installed for mi to accomplish... now i jus hope that i will be completely well soon... as i m blogging i m crying... i m in pain n sadness.. n lionel is right only God can help.. i'll not let God down... to all those who loved n cared for mi thanz a lot... Especially sergoeh who went to the hospital early in the morning to c mi... thanz... u r a great pal.. i will be fine soon... no worries! God allowed tis pain to happen to mi knowing i can handle it... n he's alwayz beside mi so i hav no fear...
i had a great time in church camp... again i managed to touch the 2.4m pool's floor wit wayne... hehe thankz... heard so many messages n the one that impacted mi the most is the one abt promises... did i promise anyone anything lately? did i promise God something? had i an agreement wit him... yes i did... he gave mi wad i asked for... he supplied all my needs... n he held my hand... he was there whenever i needed someone... its time for mi to keep my promise... i dun wan break his heart coz he is alwayz trying to heel mine... i cant be so cruel...
i'll be having greater responsibilities next year as a youth leader. i will try my best to connect wit God n be a good role model... i know God's wit mi... i onli hav to connect n invite him into my life once again... its tough but not impossible. i'll keep my promise God!
i love u

hehe... i jus came back from prom la... its was quite an okie experience... except for the dinning part which i dun wish to tok abt... coz it would jus spoils the good n beautiful mood... hehe...
was so excited for almost everything la... went to paint my nail, curl my hair n jus simply hav fun!!! took many nice pictures wit my classmates... n the desert was superb!!! hehe...
we went walking a little in orchard n the christmas decor is simply gorgeous... also, half of us went for late night movie, n it was super scary la! i think i onli watched half or less of the whole show... i even stuffed my fingers into my ears to block out the sound effects...
think overall i enjoyed myself alot... quite satisfied wit my appearence n hair... for the first time in my life, my hair curls in a direction n my fringe is super straight! woo hoo!!!
will be off for church camp in a few hours time like hav to reach jurong by 10.30am n now's like 3.32am n i m blogging... hehe... think i cant sleep also la... so let mi fill u guyz out wit more interesting stuff that happened in this packed but enjoyable week...
mondae to wednesday was my class's chalet at pasir ris (downtown east) hehe... learnt to play majong for the first time n slept really really late... its incredible, the things i did... i reached the chalet veri late on mondae night coz i went out wit the SDAC ppl... hehe had a great time WTT wit them... hehe... then i went to meet my class at the chalet... was super hungry then... had my dinner near 1 am n then went to airport to sent my teacher off n left the airprot at abt 4am... think its crazy!!! then i mearly slept for less then 3 hrs before waking by my noisy classmates... think we jus had so much fun togethere la... shld meet up again soon guyz...
hey ppl, lets never forget our bonds n friendships ya... remain close n hang out more la... jia you in the things that u do... hehe... "look back n ur future will be bright" hehe a qoute from Lau... like almost alwayz la... so, dun forget mi n i'll also try never to forget u peepz...
204 really rox!!! hehe**

these past 2 weeks shld be onli all abt examz but it really isn't that way coz my brain n heart is still not concentrating fully on sch work many a times... i noe i shld... i'm still in it, thinking abt things i noe i shldn't n feeling sad... i dun wan but trying isnt quite helping... jus feeling like not caring abt anything n jus rest... be in a world of fantasy of my own... so unrealistic huh...
tried my veri best for maths c paper 1, phy paper 1 n 3 n fmaths paper 1 but think i din score as much as i wanted to also dun noe y... hope i'll at least pass fmaths, get a decent grade for phy n maths c of coz not forgetting GP la... when i return to sch on mondae i think it will really shock...
as i'm looking at many of my friends blog, i ponder over 1 as it writes on the cover "will you ever know how much i love you"," writing down my thoughts abt u is the only thing i can do" and "my love for you will never end, you'll always be part of me , as long as time keeps on passing by"... For its all abt u... i thought to myself, is it jus a cliche or maybe its quite true? my mind is so occupied... if its going to be so true it also gonna be so sad huh...
before i decided to finally blog, i went searching for song... online... haha, mi online, download???trying to download my first song... but i couldnt find it...i did try... but still... felt so bad coz i hav to do it all by myself now... y cant life be NOT complicated? i really wonder...
i went to look for lyrics, haha for the first time in my life... this is wad i found, one of my favorite songs...